It’s Not Gonna Be Pretty (2010)

Lyrics by: Jared Boulanger

1. Beyond Recognition
Saw it again like I knew I would
Distant and calm, underneath all along
Believing your love was a love of mine
Like it was my own, when I knew I was wrong
It was your cold dim basement
It’s my flooded home
It was the look that I thought you reminded me of
Called you a friend when I knew I could
Keep us a part of a one sided heart
Believing in love was a love of mine
When I was told it would never grow old
It’s alright, I don’t mind, it’s you and me girl

2. Do-ers & Say-ers
Try and fool me, let your guard down to see
You never wanted to fall in, to fall in, to fall
Tied down loosely with your heart on your sleeve
You never wanted to fall in, to fall in, to fall in love
Passionate words leave you hooked
When you find them in the street you’re sold
Passionate words leave you hooked
Till they lead the way out
Wrong to suffer when she’s adored
You ought to fault who couldn’t tell her
That she’s a whore all by herself now
It’s not her fault that she’s alone
One slow whimper in every page she turns
Passionate words leave you hooked
When they find you in the streets don’t
Try and fool me with your palms out to plead
You never wanted to fall in, to fall in, to fall in love

3. It’s the Hair That Makes the Dress Chic!
I’ll be the nocturne hymn you’ll dream upon
A bitter lover in dull moments
Down to your utmost whim, I’ll make the best of it
I’ll sew by hand the hem our seams upon
In fits of laughter and slight moans
Until your light goes dim, I’ll do what I can
Forced then rejoiced with a hum
Though how I meant well, through my untrained eyes

4. One Fell Swoop
(no vox)

5. Familiar Presence
I know where you’re comin from
Cuz you’re not the only one
Who can talk their way out of this now
With some luck you might as well
Take your chances somewhere else
If you start to think they can sense that
I know where you’re comin from this time
It’s no surprise that there’s somebody else
To fess up would be crazy even for a song
To fess up wouldn’t do any better for a soul
I know where you’re comin from this time
It’s no surprise that there’s somebody else
Cuz you run your mouth like it suits you well
Like it’s life or death

6. One Word Emotions
When i get mad it’s out of love
Whenever you run away from being hurt
And then you feel sad just out of love
And then I wonder if you’ve given up
Baby, I’m not the one who’s playin rough
Because it feels bad it’s out of love
And then you wallow in it being dumb
And then you feel had just out of love
Because you can’t erase where it came from
But now our tumbling just isn’t fun to me
I guess that in love is something that we’re not
Prove to me while we can still smile
Who knows this better than you have
And now we’re crumbling right out from under me
But you can run away, because you’re dead to me
I guess that in love is something that we’re not
Baby, I’m not the one who’s playin dumb

7. Time Will Tell
Good to know when you’re not home
Good to know your reaction
Good to no-one, good for nothing
It’s good to know you still care
Good to go, then come up short
Truth be told at your discretion
Up to no good, cuz we’re unsure
It’s difficult to accept that
Time will tell who’s allowed

8. A Cute Little Ruin
Pleasure can be hopeless when it comes
Through never ending motion, though it seems
And though it seems, you know it seems
Just like a dream
Whether there be ocean or a stream
Treasure it together to where it goes
Cuz here we go, and there we go
To where it goes
I want to stay young enough to feel your arms around
Enough to tell you afterwards that I believe you’re good

9. The Distant Knell
One more night on my own
Careful what road you’re on
No-one there you can touch
No amends you can botch
Cuz it’s through
Yes it’s through
Tune it out
When it’s all said and done
You can’t feel pain when you’re gone
No more shame to endure
No more of the same kind of bores
When it’s through
Cuz it’s through
In the wake of the wonders you have felt
There’s no way to rest assure of that sound
When it’s through
Cuz it’s through
Tune it out right now
And keep those things to yourself

Never Mix, Never Worry (2009)

Lyrics by: Jared Boulanger

1. Never Mix, Never Worry
Her face is the one I know, but I can’t find a name to call
Her teeth sink into my throat, like the first token of hello
You treat me as if I’d hoped we’d remain intertwined by woe
For keeps even if I burn out bright by tomorrow
No trace of the life I led
No trace of the love I left
No trace of anyone at all
Now I can’t tread the water
So don’t try me, cuz you’ll wind up cross
And don’t slug another fight tonight
Just tip-toe around the war we don’t speak

2. Rose Puzzles
Where vines hang downward, winding wild like a fern
Where no rules define us and no walls confine us
Tilt your head backwards, find the stem through the soil
Where no roles confine us and no laws define us
Where blue skies dance over your shoulders

Received in Bitterness (2009)

Lyrics by: Jared Boulanger

1. Psychological Thriller
All that I love I pretend you are not
All that I want I pretend we have got
All that I lost I pretend you have found
And all that it was, was pretend we found out
If only you’d say all that I wont
If only you’d stay I’ll never know how I’m alone
All that you saw I pretend to have thought
All that I’ve don’e I pretend we forgot
All that you had to pretend it’s about
Is all that we have to pretend we have now
Do we talk their lies through our wandered eyes
Did we cross that line and couldn’t turn back
If only you’d say all that I wont
If only you’d say all that I don’t
If only you’d say all that I wont
I’ll never know

2. Holy Terror
Birds come out at Springtime
But no time to call your own
Wrong ways and nice tries, She says
Enough said, don’t spoil everything
There’s no chance of turning me on
It’s all the same
Just shades of Grey
You’re all the same
Words come out every try
But no path to follow you on
Long days in denial, She says
Oh dear, don’t show me everything
There’s no chance of turning you down
It’s all the same
Just shades of Grey
You’re all the same
Trust, trust, trust trust

3. Is It Happening?
Watch her through worlds unclear
And talk her through words of fear
Cheer up, you’re wasting tears
Love just don’t disappear
And I put it out of sight
And I put it out of mind
And it hung me out to dry
Obsessions I thought I was over
Changes you saw in my heart
Over
I don’t think I’ll ever know

4. Your Pretty Sphinx Voice
Cut you off where we can make sure it stops
If it goes wrong and you’ve had enough
What you want will take away all you’ve got
But it’s not your fault that you want out
Now my only unknown is to hear you once more
Shut me out before you get messed around
And we can’t tell where it went down
Leave me alone, just go away on your own
Before you float like the other ghosts
Now my only unknown is to hear you once more

5. It’s Just a Cut…
You talk about all the little things you know
You walk around all the places that you hope she goes
You laugh about all the people that you’ve hurt without
Ever thinking that they’d be back to take their turn, but you’ll learn
Not for long
You live in doubt with the secrets that she won’t expose
You love without ever giving it to those you chose
You sleep around with the images you can’t let go
Now you really have to be careful of who holds you close
Warned by the rays of your warm, white light
And told by the rest of your cold, black life
Only to fold by the knife
Luring you on

6. Double Negative
If I dunno just how it goes
Will you lead the way to another day
If what we are has gone too-far
Will you make the world turn into a blur
Cuz you said you could
I thought our troubles would end
When and if I traveled through them
If our beyond has come and gone
Will you take the blame for the games we played
Will you be afraid of the ways we change
Will you be replaced, cuz that can be arranged
Lalalalala
I thought my troubles would end

7. What in the World
Don’t go dumb girl
What in the world have you done now
Whine and complain just to make a sound
Will you wake up
What in the world has got you down
You’re walking on eggshells to be yourself
Will you wake up
Where in the world have you gone wrong
Begging for life when you have one
Will you wake up
Trouble sleeping near us, trouble sinking in
But now I know for sure, that all I wants the same thing
What in the world do you have left
Waiting on friends who can’t lend their help
Will you wake up

8. …Then Who Does?
If I dunno…

The Meat of the Fruit (2008)

Lyrics by: Jared Boulanger

1. Weak at Heart
How I begin to start
And where to draw the line
Hard to believe the thought
Of what I can leave behind
Do you see eyes lost in another time
Now I can play the part
Just like I hear it rhyme
Now I live in the dark
When I can see the light
Do you see eyes lost in another time
Do you have eyes lost in another try
You were everything I couldn’t see
But time wouldn’t release me within
My love is true, but it’s not for you
You should’ve tried to convince me
Now I can read your thoughts
Just not between the lines
Now I can feel your heart
Just like it beats in mine
Do you see eyes lost in another time
Would you say I’m lost in another time
I set my life up to it
I’ll board up the door
I’ll board up the door
You were everything I couldn’t see,
But time wouldn’t release me within
My love is true, but it’s not for you
You should’ve tried to convince me
I’ll board up the door
I’ll board up the door

2. It’s Easier to be a Hypocrite
There’s nothing worse than can’t give back
What you’re still feeling
But no-one’s worth standing by my side
For so many reasons
I don’t know if that’s me from a different view
I don’t know if that’s me with another you
I don’t care if it’s a waste of my time
Somethings gonna kill you
There’s nothing worse than can’t take back
What you’re still stealing
I don’t even know why I tried
To be what you needed
I don’t know if that’s me from a different view
I don’t know if that’s me with another you
I don’t care if it’s a waste of my time
I don’t care if it’s still wasting my time
I don’t know what it means when they say
Somethings gonna kill you

3. The Truth in our Lies
I’m trying to fill the emptiness
With secrets inside my head again
To live so effortless
To live so effortless
I’m dying to tell you everything
That tempts us without a consequence
To live so effortless
To live so less
Our needs are tiresome
Our wants begin with disdain
We’re all to blame for the truth in our lies
To live so effortless
To live so… So?

4. Leslie Burke
I have you.

5. Trivial pursuit
Unwanted, un-thought of
Alone with no-one to bother
You love it, it’s a part of you
Un-doubted, it’s in control
You wanted someone beside you
All I wanted to do was be it
Hear the soundwave inside me
See the lights blink without me
Put the memory behind me
I know it’s gone completely
You told me you own me
I wouldn’t give in so easy
Now I can’t bring myself to think
About it, it’s in control
You wanted someone beside you
All I wanted to do was be it
We couldn’t pretend we tried to
All I want now is to believe it
Hear the soundwave inside me
See the lights blink without me
Put the memory behind me
I know it’s gone completely
I know it’s gone completely
I know you’re gone completely

6. A Woman or a Grave
On the runway
You cast away all your stones
On the long way home
You cast away all your bones
Away
On the runway
You found a way all your own
On a one-way road
You lost the way from your home
Away
Time to waste on a new disaster
And you know mistakes work faster
Stand and wait on a steel-beam rafter
And ya don’t care what comes after
On the runway
You cast away all your stones
On a one-way road